People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world your best and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It never was between you and them anyway.
-Mother Teresa

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Wednesday, June 18, 2008


I was getting ready for bed and I just kept having these thoughts go through my head and I had to get them out. It's really not that interesting or life altering.....just thoughts.

I love my blog. My blog, my little corner of the world where I can let myself out. I try to use it as a sort of journal, letting some of the best and funnier moments of my life shine forth. I paint lovely, pretty pictures of my darling girls (which they are), and exclaim how wonderful my life is (which it is). I don't like to put negative things on here because I think manure repells people, even me, to my own manure pile. Having kids is hard enough when you dwell on it. So I paint pretty pictures to help me focus on the good aspects of being a mother.

However, I have to get these thoughts in my head out and "on paper" so to speak. I read other people's blogs about how much they love being mothers and I wonder where I missed the train. The day to day stuff is boring, hard, and monotanous. Those mother's must love their kids more than I love mine. It would be a lie if I said that I loved being a mother. Don't get me wrong....I LOVE my girls, but I'm not head over heels in love with being a mother.

I don't love waking up multiple times in the night, just to have to wake up early and not get a nap during the day to make up for it.

I don't love changing poopy diapers (or underwear for that matter).

I don't love trying a dozen different things before I figure out that Regan wants turkey meat and pickles for breakfast.

I don't love picking up the same messes day after day.

I don't love being a referee between the girls.

I don't love not being able to do things that I want to do.

I don't love trying to entertain the girls to keep them happy day after day.

I don't love cleaning up lipstick, pen, marker, vaseline, you name it, all over eachother and everything (like our new couch).

I don't love disciplining.

I don't love to hear whining.

I don't love wrestling the kids through church.

I don't love looks the girls give me like I've just broken their hearts.

I don't love seeing them sick or in pain.

I don't love being with them all day, caring for them all day, and doing pretty much everything for them all day, for them to favor their daddy over me.

I don't love the guilt that comes from wondering if I'm doing a good enough job.

I love moments of being a mother.

I love when Sophie kisses me and makes the "muah" sound.

I love when Regan sings with me.

I love watching them hug and kiss eachother.

I love hearing Regan scream that Sophie is climing the stairs and then go get Sophie and see a triumphant look on her face.

I love watching them dance.

I love looking at them while they are asleep.

I love watching them discover something new.

I love doing Regan's hair (when she lets me).

I love looking at their smiling faces and thinking that they are the most beautiful children alive.

You know, it seems that the cons outweigh the pros. I mean how does a little dance hold up to poop smeared all over the bathtub mutliple times? Or barf, food, pee, and pen all over the new couch? Yet somehow in this crazy does. The world continues to be populated. Families continue to grow. We will have more children (not this minute mind you).

I guess in all my rambling, I really want my girls to look back when they are mother's and realize that some of the same things they are feeling and going through are normal. I want them to know and understand that I truly do love them and want all things good for them. I am new at this motherhood thing and most of the time I just pray that I get it right.....that what I'm doing is going to help them. Isn't that the common bond that links mothers together? The hope that what you are doing will make a difference and help your child reach their full potential? So maybe I am a real mother and not just a faker like I've felt for a long time. Maybe I do rank up with those mothers that have that same goal in mind. Maybe I didn't miss the train, I'm just on the caboose and trying to get my bearings. Maybe....just maybe.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Disney Princess

I can see this about me. I mean she is an intellectual person and not some cheesy, dripping with mush love-sick girl who can't think for herself. Plus she has a killer voice and is crazy sexy so I KNOW that's me (hahaha)! ;)

You Are Belle!

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Intelligent and kind. Your beauty goes much further than your apperance. Also, you make judgements of people based on their personality and not their looks. Attaining all the knowledge that you can is one of your major goals in life, but you are also a person who can make things happen.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Monday, June 9, 2008

7 Big Ones!!

Today is our anniversary. If you can't guess from the title is has been 7 big years. I was looking back through old pictures and had some good memories that I thouht I'd share with you. Beware: there are going to be alot of pictures.

While we were dating. (Left): Dixie College Homecoming Dance
(Top): Jason's College Graduation
(Bottom): Watching movies at Jason's house

Wedding Day

I love these "Cutting the Cake" pictures. This was at the reception in Heber

We moved to Salt Lake just before our first anniversary to go the University of Utah. I worked at the hospital as a CNA and Jason worked at Sky West. We were able to fly for free to many places. We were able to fly to Chile (where Jason served his mission) on First-Class for VERY cheap.

We saw people he knew which was great but we got roasted in the sun sooooo very badly that we had to return home after 5 days instead of staying 2 weeks. All in all what was supposed to be the trip of a lifetime ended up being the worst trip of our lives.

However, we did have many fun trips like this one to 6 Flags, CA to celebrate Jason's BF's birthday.

And this one to northern Idaho to see Jason's other BFs. We got all dressed up to go get dessert. People couldn't stop staring but it was a great time.

After a year we moved back to SG and went to Nitro racing in LV with my bro.

For our second anniversary we went to Yellowstone camping and then on up to ID to see our friends again.

Graduating with my AS.

Hanging with good friends.

(Left): Casey and Kelly Niederhauser

(Middle): Travis and Amber Sheffield

(Right): Two good-lookin' people

4 Year Anniversary

Bringing Regan Home '06

Christmas '06

Kristal 34 wks pregnant, Jason 29 wks, and Mark 24 wks.

May '07

December '07

Life has been good to us these last 7 years. It seems like it hasn't been that long, yet thinking about all that we have done and all these memories, it seems like a different life time. We have moved 4 times and are about to move again. I finished dental hygiene school, and Jason is about to start architecture school. We have two beautiful daughters. We have made many amazing friends that we will have for life. We truly have been blessed. I know I have. Jason is without a doubt the perfect match for me. I don't know how he puts up with me the way he does. He is the best thing that has happened to me. Love you and Happy Anniversary!

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

The Office

So you all know that I LOVE the TV show The Office so I found this character quiz. Hahaha, not what I was expecting, but pretty funny if you ask me!