People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world your best and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It never was between you and them anyway.
-Mother Teresa

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Reasons to Smile

The things my girls do and say regularly make me smile. So I thought I would share them with you and hopefully they will make you smile too.

  • Regan loves to dress as silly as possible. Such as putting gloves on her feet and saying she has monkey feet. One day she put on a shirt with one arm in the sleeve and the other out of the neck like a toga. She said she was like Hercules.

  • Sophie got out of the bathtub and I told her to get daddy to help her get dressed. Jason was in the computer room with the door closed so she knocked on it and said, "Mr. Griii-iiinch! Are you in there?" She likes that movie. Mary Poppins is her favorite movie and wants to watch it daily.

  • My mom was playing with Regan and Regan put a play construction hat on her head and called her Handy Manny. My mom doesn't know that is a Disney Channel show and said, "Well are you Silly Dilly?" Regan, who frequently likes to de-robe herself and was infact clothing-less from the waist down, said, "No. I'm Naked Bummy!" Hahaha, that girl keeps me in stitches.

  • Sophie is so wild and crazy she belongs in a circus. She is so physically active and is like a little tom boy. She reminds me alot of my sister, Kandra. She is athletic and skilled physically, but loves to be prissy and dressed up. Everyday she has to wear the "twirliest" dresses she has. Even over her clothes if she has to. She loves to twirl. If the dress doesn't twirl enough for her liking she won't wear it. She has even refused to take them off for bed time and wears them over her pajamas. She wants to wear her "beautiful dress" all day long. Even now in the snowy winter. She lalso loves to wear my lip gloss and have her hair look cute. Regan on the other hand hates to wear dresses and have her hair done.

  • I have frequently talked about Regan and her awesome singing ability. She continues to amaze me with the songs she learns, makes up, and remembers. Her new favorite songs to sing are from Mama Mia (which happens to be her favorite movie (and I'm not sure how I feel about that)). I love to sing those songs and ones day she started singing along with me. She can belt out those songs so well and I love hearing her. I'll have to try and post a video of it so you can hear it.

  • If you call Sophie anything from cutie to monkey, she says, "No, I'm just Ella Joy." Ella is her middle name.

  • Yesterday I went into the girls room it was torn to pieces. I exclaimed that it was a disaster. My ever curious and questioning Regan asked what that meant and I told her that is was a big, huge mess. We cleaned it up and little while later she comes to me yelling that there was a disaster in her room. Me: What?!? We just cleaned your room! Regan: Come see!! There is disaster in my room!! Regan is scared of the green light on the fire alarm so we covered it up with paper. When I get into the room she yells and points at the alarm calling it a disaster because the paper had uncovered the green light.

  • The girls were watching 101 Dalmations with Jason. Jason said, "Do we have dogs?" Regan replied, "No," then thoughfully, "but we do have a monkey. Sophie's a monkey."

Well, with the pregnancy over, the desire to craft has come back. I haven't done anything for Christmas from being so tired and sick and needed to catch up, so I have been crafting up a storm. My mom helped me while she was here and I am happy to report that all the presents I am giving this year are homeade and I am getting close to finishing. I'm not doing a ton of presents, but what I am doing are pretty hefty projects. I can't wait to post them after Christmas is done.

These are pictures my mom took in August when we were in Az visiting.

Sunday, December 13, 2009


I have so much on my mind but don't know what to say. The last two weeks have revealed so many blessings to me that I knew I had, but just didn't appreciate as much as I should. While my heart is still broken, I feel so much peace in my relationship with my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. The other miscarriages left me angry, bitter, and questioning why, why, why. But I wouldn't trade those experiences as hard as they were, because it has left me with stronger faith in Heavenly Father. I know he loves me and is aware of my struggles. I may be sad now but I know he sees the bigger picture and knows what he is doing. There is great comfort in that knowledge. The blessing of friends and especially family has been brought before me and I feel so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. My mother-in-law came up here the day we found out and stayed with us for a whole week. I was still so sick and throwing up everything until I had my D/C that Friday. She took care of the girls and took so much weight off of my and Jason's shoulders. Then my mom came up here this past week while I was recovering and is has been so great to have her here.

The biggest blessing I have recognized has been my girls. I am so glad to have them. They are the sweetest and most special things in my life. Regan is like Tender-Heart Bear. She is so aware of people and sensitive to things that happen around her. I had the girls with me in the ultrasound room because Jason was at school and I didn't think there would be anything to worry about. When the doctor said that there was no heart beat Regan wanted me to explain to her what was happening. As I did, I started bawling. She grabbed a ton of tissues and started hugging me saying over and over, "It's alright mama. I'm here. I'll help you feel better." Sophie was there giving me hugs too. Sophie is like Fun-Shine Bear. She just bounces off the walls and her cheesy smile can make me smile anytime.

Right now I just feel so much gratitude. Thank you for your kind words and prayers. I have felt them. I'm going to start posting more upbeat posts now because I don't want you to get sick of my sad posts. I hope you all are having a wonderful Christmas season so far!

Monday, November 30, 2009

I Hate This Part

I hate having to say it out even type it out loud......sending it out there to the universe, because once it is out there the bad dream is no longer a bad dream. You know that it is not something crazy you just invented. It becomes real. Maybe it really is a bad dream right now. Maybe I'm having an out of body experience. But I know once I type those words and press send that it will become reality. My baby died. There I said it. It really is happening for the 4th time. I can't believe it. I was so positive about this one. I really felt things were going to work out this time.

Well, now I can craft again. Now my feet will quit being cold. Now I will hopefully stop throwing up. Now I will gain some energy back. But even these feeble attempts at making myself feel better doesn't make me feel better. I really wanted that baby. I could really see myself hauling three kids around. You'd think it would get easier after having delt with it 3 other times. I'm not really trying to fish for sympathy right now....I hate to make this kind of stuff public, but I guess I did need to print a retraction from my last blog post. It's like telling people you are going to be the main part in a production and then when you've got everyone's attention you pee your pants and fall on your face when trying to run away. I hate that. I just needed to get my thoughts out of my head before I go mad. It still feels sort of surreal. This day threw me a curve ball and I got blind-sided by it. Sorry to have posted the last post and then this one.

Friday, November 27, 2009

It is sad...

....that to lose 18 pounds I have to get pregnant. That's right. Got a little Jason Jr. in the oven. I'm 10 weeks along and pretty excited in a sadistic kind of way I guess. Maybe pchologically I really like the torture my girls put me through. Good thing they are cute ;) No really, I'm excited.
So there has been no posting because all I really had energy to do was get my girls food and throw up. No crafts to post, well exept for 2 fixed up shirts and 3 Christmas pillows I made before I got sick (no pics because no energy). I haven't even felt like crafting at all!!!! Can you believe that me, the project queen, has no desire to craft?!?!?!?! It is sickening I tell you. But I found a picture I like and it is on the side of my blog. "I'm so crafty I make people." That about sums it up right now. Jason + Me = Baby #3

Side note: Sophie's hand is doing great. My little nephew got burned really bad with boiling water and spent 5 days in the hospital. He's a special boy and we hope he make a quick recovery. What is up with the burns in our family!?!?

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Burn Victim, Super Hero, and Costumes...oh my!

Burn Victim

So yesterday we got home from Payless and I was putting the shoes away. Regan comes in to calmly tell me that Sophie turned the stove on. At that moment I hear Sophie scream so I run in there and Sophie is on the burner and there are flames around her. I quickly moved her by the sink with cold water and then tried to put ot the flames. There were uncooked pasta noodles and her stuffed dog on fire and the burner was on high. All in the space of 2 minutes.....will I ever learn that I CANNOT LEAVE HER ALONE FOR MORE THAN 2 SECONDS?!?!?!?! (Side note: That morning Jason gave her a banana while he went to brush his teeth. When he came back, she was on the counter with a sharp knife, and the banana was chopped into tiny little bits. She is seriously faster than you can even imagine!)

Her poor little hand and fingers were crispy black/brown. I am actually surprised that she didn't get burned in more places. I couldn't find anymore burn marks on her. It is a miracle I tell you. I gave her a frozen jar of jam to hold and was trying not to freak out as I called Jason at school to come home. When Jason got home we took her to the emergency room. The poor little thing was in so much pain. They got the burn team down, gave her some medicine that made her loopy and scrubbed her burned skin off. It was not really a pretty sight. They then wrapped it up with GLOBS of burn cream. She was freakin' hilarious as the loopy medicine made its' way out of her system.....talking s l o w l y, being dizzy, saying crazy things.

Through all this Regan was with Jason out in the waiting room and just walking around. Jason said she was an angel. Funny story I heard after...she was sitting in a chair and kept bouncing up and down. Then she said, "My bum won't stop singing! My bum won't stop singing!" Oh my goodness, that girl is a freakin' comedian. Watch out Conan O'Brian, 'cause someone that's actually funny may come to run you out of town.

Anyway, I have to change her bandages once a day. They want to see her back on Monday. I unwrapped and cleaned her hand this morning, then wrapped it back up and now it looks like a child size boxing glove.

Second degree burns

You wouldn't even know she is hurt. She is causing trouble at her usual rate today without signs of slowing down. So glad it is not any worse than it is. Love my sweet cheeks.

Super Hero!

A couple weeks ago, Regan was invited to a super hero birthday party and she was so excited to be a super hero. So I got her all dressed up as Super Regan, with her ducky blanket as her cape and swim bottoms for the...uh...bottoms I guess. She was the cutest super hero you've ever seen.

Sophie couldn't stand to be left out so I made her a super hero cape (out of her"ducky" blanket, as she calls it) and put an S on her shirt. They kept saying "SUPER HERO!!!" over and over. That's why their mouths in the picture all have "O" shapes.


Sophie and her "broken" hand, as she calls it.

I just love seeing them loving on eachother.
Sweet girls. My mom made their Halloween buckets for them. The girls love them. Thanks mom! Until next time....A Happy Halloween to all and to all a fright night!

Monday, October 19, 2009

Halloween Pics

We had a village halloween party and a great photographer took pics of all the kids.

Believe it or not, Sophie was trying to smile.

I love this last pic of her. So cute.

Regan wanted to be a dinosaur. When we ask her to smile for a picture, she comes up with these weird smiling faces as seen below. What a goof.

She is so excited about the fact that her costume has a big tail on it.
This one turned out pretty good.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

When school started for Jason in August, I took the girls on a 2 week vacation to see my family. It was great. I got a couple cute shots of Sophie out enjoying my mom's flowers. I may be biased, but I think she is pretty darn cute.

Here is one of my trips to see my sister in Vegas. The girls had a fun time mauling my nephew and playing at the park in the water.

While I was with my sister, we went to D.I. and I found this desk/bookshelf for $15!! I could not be parted with her. It was a process getting it home but well worth it. I sanded for hours and painted and now she is in a lot better shape.

I also took a bunch of old bed sheets with me on my trip. I had collected them and wanted to make a blanket out of it. I got it pretty much done and all I had to do when I got home was sew on the binding. It is a king size quilt that I kind of wanted for a picnic blanket.

My mom came up to stay with us for a week. Lucky for me because I got sick and she took care of the girls and the house. We did manage to fit in a couple projects.

Here is a Halloween table runner I put together.

We went to D.I. and found some great stuff. Below was a run down night stand for $4. Well, you can bet I picked that thing up in a hurry and immediately started to paint it when I got home. I LOVE it!!!!!

This is one of the lamps I got at D.I. a while ago. Painted that thing and decorated the lamp shade to match my almost done bedding.

Good times. I did manage to read 4 books in the middle of all that. You'd think I would be going crazy, but I love every minute of spare time I have!!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009


I am humbled by:

my lack of learning,
my underestimation,
my sheer idiocy,
the talent my girls have at destroying
my house faster than I can clean it.

What made me think that I could
leave them alone for more than 1 minute?!?!
Silence is not's deadly.....

It started first with me starting to clean our bathroom. They took that opportunity to make some soup that entailed uncooked rice and pasta, spices and of course butter.......all over the kitchen counter, floor, table, themselves....ect. Bath #1.
So I start cleaning that up. They take that opportunity to go to the bathroom and get my scrubbing brushes filled with Ajax and start scrubbing the sink, floor, rugs, carpet, walls, and couch. Nice. Bath #2.
So I figure that I better finish cleaning the bathroom so they don't get chemical poisoning or something. In the mean time they decide that a picnic in the living room would be a great idea. They get a couple boxes of cereal and dump them on the living room floor. Whatever.
I finish cleaning the bathroom and go back to the kitchen to finish cleaning the "soup". I realize to my horror that it is yet again, very quiet. I go to their bedroom where the door is closed. This is what I found.....
Ajax canister empty, Sophie covered hair to toe, and the rest of the room covered. Great. So much for chemical poisoning prevention. Bath #3 and all before 1 pm.
So now I am holed up in the computer room for a mom break, with the door locked so they can't get in. Am I worried that they will make another big mess? Not really. They are both banging on the door and screaming to let them in.

Look at in crime.
Anybody need some good birth control? Come on over.....

Sunday, September 13, 2009

3 days + 0 kids =

Two table top runner thingys.

A pillow cover for my bed.

A king size quilt top.
A new purse for my store.

And 2 painted lamp bases and a recovered lamp shade. Sorry no pics at this time. I just love my free time! Big thanks to Jason for taking the kids camping so I could have some therapeutic R&R.

Friday, August 14, 2009


We were visiting my brother in SG and eating some lunch with them. There were a couple of us in the conversation with the girls about healthy eating and not eating junk food because it makes you fat. Regan pipes up and says, "It will make you fat like my daddy!" (chuckle chuckle)

She was feeding a horse some grass and turned to me with a disgusted face. "I got horse lick on me!"

To the tune of "London Bridges Falling Down":
"I'm a monster, so I'm dangerous, so I'm dangerous, so I'm dangerous.
I'm a monster, so I'm dangerous. I'm a monster!"

Up at camp Jason's cousin found a snake and she wanted to hold it. When she got it she was saying, "I love this snake. It's my best friend in the whole wide world." (mind you, she says that about alot of things including the vacuum, bugs, and her poo. um......i think we need to find her some better friends) The people around told her to kiss it and she did!

I was canning some beans and Regan says, "Mama I don't like beans."
"They are good and healthy for you."
And then in the meanest and scariest look she could muster she replied, "Mama, I'm going to sing you a song about not liking beans!" (HahahahaHHaha)

We went outside and it was overcast and sprinkling and she said, "Look, the clouds are kissing! That's why it's raining!"

When she goes to bed and we lay with her, we can only lay on a certain side because the other side is for Jesus.

She loves to "cook" in the kitchen making birthday cakes with water and grapes or whatever she can find. She made a concoction (spl?) one day and called it "welcome soup". Alrighty there sista ;)

I just love the funny things kids say.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

So I guess it has been a few days since this thing was updated. I really haven't been on the internet/computer much the last couple of months. Too busy and no desire. So here are some of the happening around our abode.

We got the girls bunk beds. Woopee!! We are just waiting for the first broken arm to result from this.
It has been bloomin' hot and the girls begged me to use this as a bath tub. Why the heck not?!?! So I filled it up in the shower with warm water and took it outside. I have a cell phone pic of both of them in it at the same time and it is pretty funny. Sorry, but I'm to lazy to post it.

Little Miss Sweet Cheeks

Sweet Cheeks had a nose wrestling contest with a sticker, and the sticker won.

Regan giving us a good shot of her boogs while camping.

And the real reason(s) why I don't blog much anymore.......

My new baby

Yup, I did everything including the machine quilting myself


(more projects for your viewing pleasure coming soon)

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Photo shoot

I am lucky enough to have my sister visiting. She wanted me to take some pictures of her and her boy. He sure is a cutie. I got a couple cute shots of the girls too.

I would love this shot even more if Sophie hadn't smeared sand all over her wet face. That's why it's black and white.

I just love his cheesy grin.