People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world your best and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It never was between you and them anyway.
-Mother Teresa

Sunday, February 3, 2013


To be honest, I really haven't felt like blogging.  I have a hard time thinking about what to blog about lately because the overwhelming and ever present thing in my life is the fact that my mom is going down hill rapidly and will all to soon be gone, and that is not something I like to face by blogging about it.  I don't know why but this week has been a hard one for me.  I miss my mom.  It is so hard to see her in the state she is in now.  It is just a shell of my mom.  Not the same person that calls me a couple times a week to check up on me and care what is happening in my life.     I miss the level of interest she showed in the things I tell her.  I miss her insatiable desire to play games.  Not the mom who cares about crafting and sewing and getting outside to enjoy nature.  I don't think it would be as hard if her memory wasn't mostly gone.  I can't even have a conversation with her anymore.  She doesn't really respond and it is so hard to see her just sitting doing nothing when she was never one who could stand to just sit and do nothing.  I really feel for the families of people with dementia/alzheimer's.  
I am mourning already for the old part of my mom that's lost and I'll mourn her more when she is really gone.  I grieve now for my dad....but not like this.  He is still the same (maybe a little more grouchy:) but he is the same ole dad I used to know and love.
I am dreading having to go through my mom's stuff this summer to clean things out.  I don't want to walk into her sewing room knowing that she is not ever going to do any of this kind of stuff again.  I wanted to use her stuff with her.  She is too young to die.  I wish it were the second coming already so I could have my mom back.
Ok, sobbing over.  My friend Tiffani said it so eloquently..."until these Adjustments stop coming I guess I will just continue to put on my big girl panties and enjoy the ride."  Thanks for the reminder Tif.


Catherine said...

Oh Kristal, I needed to read this today. Our car wouldn't start so we were 1/2 hr late for church, my Sunday School lesson was a flop, I feel criticized by so many people, my kids are extra whiney, and there's some drama in our family right now. And then you help me remember that we all have our trials (yours harder than mine), and that I need to just be grateful for what is going good in my life. I sure love ya and keep praying for you and your family.

Call my if you need to talk. I'm always here for you!

Aunt Tiff said...


regardless of putting on your big girl panties or not...these adjustments in life are NOT easy to go through. I have come to realize that having the gospel of Jesus Christ in our lives does NOT make these moments easy, it makes them manageable. It's okay to ask why, it's okay to be mad, it's okay to mourn, it's okay to feel cheated with being so young and having a parent pass. But yes, at the end of the day, we MUST put on our big girl panties and move forward in Faith!!

I love the Greer family and wish I could take away your heartache and pain...Especially for you girls!(no offense to Lance, girls just seem to have a harder time adjusting to losses). Hang in there girl!! Love ya tons!


Living Lavallee said...

I just don't even know what to say. I can't even imagine what your family is going through. Your mom is amazing, and I feel privileged to have known her and to have been on the receiving end of her service and talents for everything. Bless your heart!

donnabigler said...

We have been thinking about and praying for you all constantly. We love all of you sooooo much. All of you have been so important in our lives and the lives of our children. Regardless of the pain any ofus have felt, we don't know exactly what you are feeling. The thing we do know, is that it is next to intolerable. I know that "a broken heart" becomes up close and personal. Our hearts ache for and with yours. We only wish we could remove the pain and turn back the hands of time. Hilary Weeks wrote a song "If I Only Had Today" that I have cried through numerous times. If we only knew ahead of time that "we only had today or a few todays"...Oh, IF!?!? Keith and I love you all so much! We will continue our prayers and have faith that Heavenly Father will open the windows of heaven upon you. We do love you. Please give your dad our love.

The Waites said...

Oh Kristal! My heart aches for you and your family!! I think of you and your family each and every day. I can not even begin to imagine the pain you are suffering with though out all these trials. I know there is nothing I can say that will ease your pain, but I just want you to know that I love you! I love your mom! I love your dad! I love your family! You are in my heart, thoughts, and always my prayers. And I know that you held in the Savior's tender embrace. I love you so much and I am so very sorry for your suffering! If you ever need to talk it out, night or day, I am here ready and available to listen.

KaNdRa and JaReD said...

These are my thoughts exactly. It is so much easier to write it then to express it outloud or to eachother. You know you can call me anytime. And please do....

DKAZ said...

I am so sorry to hear this. I had no idea and my heart aches for you. I don't remember much from our short time living by each other but I do remember us at church, at the hospital with Quinn and you and your Mama! I just know she taught you so much and your love for her. I can't imagine the heartache. You and your family are in our prayers. Please keep us posted. Much LOVE!

The Merrills said...

Your parents are totally awesome. We always loved stopping by the Greer's on our way to Mesa and back. Like I told Kandra, I feel extra for you two because you are my age.

Deni said...


Prayers for you and yours. If you are still in the Salt Lake area, and if you ever need anything, please call me.